Cemetery on Sam Hill in Worthington, Massachusetts |
This past year I lost my way. For many reasons the road disappeared. I wandered, wondered and only now edge back to the page to find the words that ground me.
Along the road in twenty-sixteen,
I somehow lost my way.
Lost my writing, lost my time,
lost my lovely wayward moments.
I wandered through snowy mountains,
mud and soft Caribbean sands.
Snapped and trapped in the corporate gulag,
one cold Hell and back again.
Write that I lost my father,
thin like leather, gasping for breath
in the downstairs room on Trouble Street
where breezes carried him birdsong
and the sent of early summer flowers.
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In that dry year of twenty-something,
all the bad times re-exploded.
Tell how I lost my temper, flawed
goodwill and old illusions.
Say I still taste the sorrow,
droning on harsh winter winds.
The soldier sheltering his trauma,
the girl on-guard, alert to fear.
One war ends in wounded peace,
where the grass is ever-greener,
along the writing road,
lost in dreams and should-have-beens,
thick with gifts and demons.